I was afraid of everything, mostly death. I am eternally grateful that I used the past tense form of “to be.” Was, not is. Want to know why? It’s because Jesus took the sting of death away from me and every person who believes.
“The word is near you, in your mouth and in your heart” (that is, the word of faith which we preach): that if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved.” (Romans 10:8b-9)
The hard part for many of us is that rocky road UP to the cross. It’s filled with doubts, fears, and “what-ifs.”
- I’m not good enough.
- I’m a sinner? What does that mean?
- Does God love me?
- Is Jesus truly God and why did He have to die?
- God is scary.
Ah, we are at a tipping point. It’s time to look at Jesus as our Deliverer. As a widow, I rely on that truth about Him every day. He took my fears and turned them to joy and peace. I’ll not forget that day. Ever.
My mom died on January 5, 2000. The loss of her cut my life in half and my sweet husband didn’t know what to do. My grief pulled me into depths I couldn’t struggle out of.
I clung to the truths I read about in the “Left Behind” book series, by Jerry B. Jenkins and Tim LaHaye. When I read all the published books, I read Tim’s commentary on Revelation (I love to know how every story ends), and in it he explains how a person gets saved from God’s wrath and gains eternal, peaceful, joy-filled life, and he spells out a prayer of salvation. I recited that prayer January seventeenth and meant it with all of my heart.
In short, God used a book series (wow, does He ever know ME) to lead me to His loving arms and out of fear. That peace and joy remain, and no one can snatch me out of His hands or out of His presence. Ever.
That is how I deal with widowhood or any other loss. It’s how you can, too. Jesus delivered me from my sins (anything that separates me from God). He is the only One who can. God became a man of flesh (Jesus) so He could taste the death we all deserve. Yet He lives! And I do too!
“For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.” (John 3:16 NKJV)
Yes, the road UP to the cross is hard. It was hard for Christ, too (He cried tears of blood the night before he went to the cross). And then, we say a simple “yes” to His kind invitation and our lives are new.
The Deliverer, Jesus Christ has saved me from all I ever was. I may still sin, but it’s no longer willful, and He is faithful and just to forgive my sins and cleanse me from all unrighteousness. (1 John 1:9)
When my Deliverer took Sam home, I felt (and still feel) the loss. Sam and I are no longer husband and wife, but we will be brother and sister in Christ for eternity!
I can’t wait.
That’s why I lean in every moment. I pray you do too.
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